alright, so i think this might be my last confessional.
the jury questioning has now ended and the final statements are up, and honestly i dont think i am going to win. i dont want to sound negative or anything, but it just seems that people didnt like my game play.
i have to say that i am really really upset right now, i will be the first to admit, since i havent been working or in school, this game has literally taken over my life, to the point where it was becoming a problem, i would run numbers in my head while making my dinner, it was getting rediculous, so i am kind of glad its over, but on the other hand its not, because i have to wait till the episodes to air, to see if i lost.
i think maybe the votes will be split between hershel and daryl, i dont understand how someone can vote for a guy who all he did was win, and play half the game, and it really truly upsets me. i put my all into this game, so much work, so much time and energy, and to know that im probably not going to win, it just really puts me down.
i know the others put alot of time into the game, but not as much as me, and i know im throwing a fit right now and i dont care, its just that this game became really unhealthy for me, and this whole entry is me being upset for myself for getting WAY to involved in this game.
i know things will return to normal now, because i actually start my new job tomorrow, so its kind of funny how it worked out, and school starts in a month so i will be ok. its just when you really want to win, and you know you might not have it, it sucks, i could see myself getting 1 or 2 votes maybe, but who knows,
also another fact that pisses me off is that patricia, was basing her vote off a joke, are you kidding me? i honestly think she had her mind made up already and wanted to fuck with us, but if i didnt get her vote because i didnt post a joke then fuck her and her vote. i dont understand why people cant vote like normal people.
yes daryl probably deserves to win this game, but i felt that i played an equal if not better one than him, and people cant see to get passed that. i hope the episodes air soon, because i really just want to put this game behind me, in a couple of days i will look back on this and laugh at my stupidity and me being pathetic, but right now i am happy its finally over.
